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Good News. i found an agency that would be taking classes on the 19th. I still need a part time job and such and the books are 40 bucks. unless they have hidden fees. Wish me luck!

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Frenetik
02:27 Jun 02 2013

yay! good luck Rose!

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Ya know the day sucks when you're taking a shower to start the day and one of your balls fall off while you're yawning. I'm just glad I didn't swallow it. Heh.

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LORDMOGY
00:42 May 31 2013

That would really suck if one of my balls fell off while I was yawning. After calling 911, I'd be yelling at my GF. ^_^

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xRosex
22:09 May 31 2013

Time for the crazy glue them. lmao



Piercing ball that is. ;P

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I admit I was not myself yesterday. A HUGE thank you to those who helped cheer me up or left comments. :) You guys made my day.



I am not one for giving up, right now at the library, I'm search for other organizations which offer classes. I will call them when I can. I have people to take care of tomorrow. I help the disabled daily and I really wish I had a stupid piece of paper to prove that through training.



Let's face it most of the people who do the Home Health Aide jobs:

1. Don't do their job. just sit there.

2. Hate their job.

3. Talk on their fancy phones.

4. screw shit up.

5. Hate animals.

6. Don't take care of people very well or lack the attention to.

7. Abuse others...

8. Won't bathe, dress, help people or change dirty items at all for others.



I could make a whole list. why would I put down the very job I want to do? Because I'm going to be better than the lot of them. just waiting on those classes and a kind soul to hire me for anything in the mean time.

If I end up working for a fast food place - I'll be blunt, I'll hate that job. I want a job I'd enjoy and I love taking care of people.



The only reason I'm not an HHA already is because of the training. It's really set me back.

We talked for 46 minutes last night. That's an accomplishment to me. I'm one step above the creeper who calls and does nothing but breathe into the phone. :(



I kept up the convo. I enjoyed it. :)



Ironically reminds me of raj and Lucy from the Big Bang Theory. Oh noes, I'm at the library right now, better jump out the bathroom window. jkjk lol

Katy is an awesome friend. I can't say that enough. It's funny, typing profanities and words like PORN. Lmao



Funny thing- A dude from my old high school was talking to me when I got on here. Fuck what people think. xD Shit is hilarious. First smile of the day. I needed that. :)

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Lullaby
21:12 May 28 2013

GOOD.

But you still didn't answer my actual, original question. :x

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xRosex
21:35 May 28 2013

I so did, maybe. D:



Hey, you answered yourself if I'm correct.

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That moment when you have to switch to IE because you started typing in Hebrew. O_o Weird library computer.....

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BLOODLIFE
19:13 May 28 2013

lol

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today is not my day. I'm at the library now so excuse the rushed typing.



I got bad news this morning that the classes were moved to the 24th of June. I expect to be away for even more time. I'm trying hard to find a job.



Mother had gotten the call and woke me up with the news. In a way i wish she had waited so I could have rested. My eyes were very red last night, but what can I say, it was totally worth the fun and long goodbeys with friends.



It took me an hour of girly sobbing to feel better. I was offered hugs but i don't want it. I wanted to be by myself in my room. Like a snot nosed brat, crying her eyes out. Dramatically asking why.



I haven't cried like that in years. lol I'm overly stressed. It's raining out, I forgot my hoodie. fuck you too mother nature.



Mom spoke to a new friend that said they could try and help me find work. They said they were sprusied we didn't call sooner. And that I was soft spoken and hard to understand... I can't help it. I have a small girl's voice that doesn't match my outside. What can ya do.



I hate this feeling. The feeling of having my hopes up and them delaying it. Why. Why. Why?

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sahahria
00:05 May 29 2013

Hang in there, it will be worth it. Sometimes it is a matter of letting things "fall together".

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It's official. My cable is already out. Wasting the few minutes of internet I have left. My eyes hurt, I'm sleep deprived. Fuck sleep, this is my internet. Yeah! It's 3am.



:D



Next time I speak to anyone will probably be when I'm at the library. If I get a chance that is. Starting the 3rd I get my classes and I'll be out by 5pm. Most libraries close by 6 and people hog the computer. So no promises unless I find one that's open late, like till 7.



Next weekend I'm going to be busy. Got the Israel parade to go to and somewhere else in Manhattan the day before that. Good fun.



My friends keep asking what I'm gonna do without net. Is he the wrong answer? loolol All my attention will probably go to him. Or I'll be reading books. (Reading them books with the pictures. >.>)



Okay, enough sleepless writing for me. >.>

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BLOODLIFE
13:56 May 28 2013

Surfing from the library won't be the same :-(

It won't be or feel instantaneous ... wish you had a Skype thingy as I'd love to cam and chat with you!

Have fun at the parade :-)

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xRosex
20:35 May 28 2013

I'll get on cam one of these days when I get my net back. Though it'll be mostly voice. I'd love to talk to a few here. :)

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I miss you. In every subtle detail. Similarities in temperature, you ignite mine higher. I crave you.



I have your chat open, wishing you were there. Re-reading, reminiscing. ♥

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supernova
10:44 May 27 2013

I really love this "Similarities in temperature, you ignite mine higher"



Now that is fuckn awesum!!!

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I must have eaten half a pot of that curry today. So full. I couldn't help myself.



In other news. AHHH OH GOD MOTHER FUCKER, I stepped on a row of staples that the sibling left out. Ripped that shit right out, the blood stains on the floor aren't very fashionable.

Changed my mind. Made the soup into a curry. Didn't go hard core on the spices, by request of everyone else. Blah blah blah, "You better not make it hard on me!" Okay then. >.>



Mmmm. I love how full of vegetables it is. Thick carrots, potatoes, two different kinds of lima beans and the list goes on.

Coconut milk, garam masala, curry powder, bay leaves, ground coriander, one drop of hot sauce and all that good stuff. Could probably use some salt, if they want it, like I said, I was light on the spices.

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sahahria
14:05 May 27 2013

Love soups like that!

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Onions will be the death of me. Oh man, usually I'm alright with them but geeze are my eyes red. Today I'm making a vegetable soup. I know, it seems really early to start on something dinner-like. Woke up at 5am. And started actually cooking at 9am. The time spent before then was watching a movie on TV and cutting up everything.



Should probably spend the rest of today watching movies, but knowing me I'll surf you tube.

I hate being looked down upon for something. I am really upset. Can't be bothered to write about it at the same time.



It's just too personal. Amazingly enough, it had to do with someone saying, "congratulations".



I can say maybe I read it the wrong way or the tone of typing is off. Knowing them, I read it correctly. Makes me feel like the dreck of society.

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BLOODLIFE
19:25 May 23 2013

From the little I'm learning about you I'd say don't len a little dent make you question your self confidence. Just keep rolling ;-)

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xRosex
20:50 May 23 2013

You know, you are right. Hardships and family aside, I shouldn't let it get to me. All life needs is happiness, not stress.



They will never know what I go through and if they don't care to know, then I shouldn't be angry at someone who couldn't care. I'm here to make myself proud. I'm here to be the better person and not write passive aggressively. Holding my tongue for their feelings has got to be the worst, but in the end, I'll be alright.

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sahahria
22:06 May 23 2013

:(

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Fuck yes! I never loved a holiday weekend so much. They extended my days of having internet. I don't plan to save it but as long as I have it for extra time- Hell yeah! :D

Highlight of my day would have to be the fact that I was waiting around for something all morning, with no sleep. Had to wait 5 hours but it payed off.



I took a rest at a bus stop, half asleep and not paying attention. Needed somewhere to sit. An old man in a wheel chair with one leg comes off of the bus. He says, "Miss., you missed the bus."



Uhh... I didn't need the bus. xD "Oh, I see homie, you just chillin'" Then he crossed the street and rode off.



I don't know, I thought it was funny. >.>

Yay! The scrubs fit me. *Just* fit me that is. xD Hope I can make them loose one day. At least in the pants area. The top fits perfectly and is what I was more worried about. I didn't want to get a bigger shirt. I'm a shy woman, sometimes and it doesn't show anything even with it being low cut. To me bigger shirt = bigger neck area.



No idea what size it is besides the letter "M" printed on both the top and the bottom. It's not like a pair of jeans, where you know the size in numbers.



Speaking of shirts, I got a size small t-shirt on sale at this other store for a buck fiddy. It's purple with a broken bone on it saying, "Oh Snap!" Now I've got to make the pun: I find that humerus.

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LilyOfTheLabyrinth
00:32 May 22 2013

I know this is bad, but I read 'buck fiddy' as fuck buddy...

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xRosex
00:42 May 22 2013

lmao! That's what the bf is for. >.>

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Today was an odd day. This man wouldn't stop drooling over me. o_O He kept asking me stupid questions. Mom chimed in and told him I was already taken. Guy must have been older than me. I assume late 20's, early 30's.



First he asked me if my nose piercing hurt. I told him it hits a nerve when you get it but doesn't really hurt much after. Then he was talking about how he's an artist. He asked me what my favorite cartoon as a kid was. I replied with Pokemon. He was like... Pokemon? As if I had given him the wrong answer. Then he asked what else I liked, "You know, from back in the day?" O.o I was like, back in the day? Pokemon was from the 90's and I'm from the 90's.



He said he'd draw me a picture so I could hang it on my wall. Uhhh... no way dude, shit would probably go into the nearest trash can. LOL What's he up to anyway? He's gonna trace something from a cartoon? How original. Pfttt.



Then he started asking me moronic questions about my boyfriend since he knows I'm taken. "So does he work? Is he tall? Can you have friends? Would he get jealous?"

I told the guy, "No, I can't have friends." LOL Cause if the guy was gonna be retarded, I was going to give him a sarcastic answer. My mother responded in again saying, "He wouldn't be jealous because he has no reason to. I love him, he's my son."



Awww. :3 She really approves. hehe But I just wish that fucktard would get the idea and back off. xD He sits away from us for a while, while we finish eating at the place. But he's staring at me. o.O

At the end, he asks me if I'm okay. If I'm tired and why I'm not smiling. Dude, srsly, it's cause you're annoying. -.- Was so glad to be out of there.



Later we picked up some scrubs for myself. :) I haven't tried them on yet, I hope they fit me correctly. I'm completely lost on what size I am. If it doesn't fit right, I'll return it. Got one in a darkish red and another set in blue.



Also, we had to go to sister's school today for something. I'm not going to get into the details. Mother was talking to someone there. It's my old high school. The AP of the Art Program walked my, VERY enthusiastically saying, "OH HEY! I knoooow yooou~! :D", she stopped for a few seconds looking for a response, then walked away. I snubbed her. Didn't say one word. Best revenge ever. I don't fucking know you, cunt and I don't have to! HA! :D

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Lullaby
23:19 May 21 2013

:X



It's good your mother approves so much. Her saying "My son" also gives the impression that it's a lot more serious than he'd been taking it. :p

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xRosex
23:21 May 21 2013

Exactly. ;)

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It's about time I write this as the week slowly ends. I read a lot of things, I've made a lot of friends. At times, I don't even like half the crap I write in here. I fucking hate emos, and I fucking hate people who bitch and whine about what they have when others truly don't have it well.



There is a difference between reading about an over dramatic bad day by some asshole who wants to cry for attention and someone who actually needs help.



Anyway, I read this a message about a journal entry, days ago, they quoted, "Friends are the family you choose." I really like that. Seems that some of us write about being broken. Of course, what do you expect on a dark network? Not rainbows and butterflies. :P



Life can be hard. I have to tell myself every day that I'm strong. That everything will be better in the future.

I dislike thinking that I'm going to be a little set back in my hardships. It reminds me of a time when I had even less than I have now. Which is amazing because I pretty much have shit right now. The bright side is, it's not rock bottom. It could actually get worse, haha. What a joke that would be, right?



The stupid news, in about 3 or so days (Lets see, till the 22nd, which could mean any time at the 22nd, so minus today leaves you with 19, 20, 21 and the 22nd, which is when it'll get shut) I won't have internet, or TV or phone calls. :)

I've lived without most of that before. Never had a computer till I was 18, as a matter of fact.



It's not going to be so bad. I'll miss my friends on here the most. And I'll visit when I get a chance at the library. Yes, I can actually admit that I don't have a life and I'll miss my friends.



On the flip side, I'll stick to my books, job training, and if they have homework, hey why not. That'll keep me busy for one month. On the weekends, I'll be with my boyfriend. Probably borrow a phone to call him up, haha.



The day before my job training, I'll be at the Israel parade. It's going to be fun. :) The 2nd day of June.

I am going to try my hardest to make sure my family is okay. They mean the world to me. Once the training ends, and I do a month of work, then I'll be all set and hopefully by then I can afford internet.



This brings me to two months of loss from the places I'm addicted to. June and July. My birthday will be at the end of July. I'll be old by the time I come back, lol.

Probably should have ended this entry by now. Oh, I ramble on.

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BLOODLIFE
00:08 May 19 2013

Hey, Emo's aren't that bad, I recently bought some Emo grass, you don't have to mow it as it cuts itself :-p

I like Emos'... but I couldn't eat a whole one!!

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xRosex
00:11 May 19 2013

Hah, wouldn't have any joke material without 'em.

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Lullaby
00:21 May 19 2013

You will flourish. You will be excellent and do well. You'll be back, we'll miss you, but you'll be back, and we will wait. :)

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Frenetik
02:54 May 19 2013

I'll miss you Rose :( love you!!!

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xRosex
03:01 May 19 2013

Thanks you guys! :)

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PandorasBx
01:29 May 20 2013

You really are an inspiration Rose, your positive attitude and the obvious love for your family. You are a wonderful person and friend, you will most definitely be missed. xxoo

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Shheeit my typing sucks. Heh. Must behave.



LOL I'm still funnay as always tho.



What. I just typed that. Okay, this is enough internet for me tonight.



But I find this amusing, heh.

Ayy, what one of you punks wants a to watch a small tour of St.Marks, New York? It's only the most awesomest punk place ever! ;)

Found this music video on the Trash page on FB and thought I'd share it. The music is okay but it's the block she walks that I'd like to tell you about. :)









Starts off that she's sitting on the steps of the famous punk store called Trash and Vaudeville.

Then she starts walking.



This screen shot shows the dollar pizza place I love, 2 Bros. Pizza. Nice soft decent pizza for a good price. :)





This one will show you the store at the corner where I buy my gloves. ^_^ That's the glove rack.







This last one is an epic french fry place called Pommes Frites. They only sell french fries in a cone, with tons of sauces to choose from. Like mayo to Mango Chutney as a small example.

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tr1n1ty01
22:21 May 17 2013

I may have to check that out next weekend! :D

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xRosex
22:25 May 17 2013

Enjoy! :) This NY'er suggests it. haha Be sure to cross the street from Trash and check out those stores also. ;)

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PandorasBx
18:42 May 18 2013

So cool to see part of your world :D

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xxxPoisonIvyxxx
01:23 May 22 2013

Cool, thanks!!! I will drag JustinV after lunch!

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Ms.I-wanna-ask-too-many-questions was asking about yesterday.

I didn't answer cause why should I? xD

Then as I was getting ready to take her somewhere. I'm all, "Ow, I think I might have bruised myself yesterday while I was..."

She cuts me off and says, "Yesterday, huh?.. I don't wanna know!"



Lmao I was going to finish the sentence with how much I hate those arm rests... but whatever. >_>

It's ironic when people think of you as ignorant and naive just because you haven't actually experienced something till you have and you reflect on how well their opinionated advice is, later on. Reminiscing of the joy that is written word and knowledge. Which is a load of contrast to said 'advice'. Although, it's not all bad, ideas are always fun. Heh.



I am obsessed. And it is NOT overrated. It is a healthy addiction, which can only grow passionately better.

I FEEL AMAZING! I LIKE CAPS! Holy crap, did I have a good day. :3 Maybe I'm hyper from the two different kinds of cannoli I ate... errr, I mean the one cannoli I ate. Omg, I love cream. >.> I LOVE CREAM!



I LOVE EVERYTHING! And everyone. :D ♥



We snuck into see Iron Man 3 instead. It was good. I never saw one or two so I'd like to watch them when I can.

We walked past the cemetery. I yelled, "Watch out for the Walkers!" I moaned like a zombie and grabbed him. Then he kissed me. Wooooo~!



I'm in such a super mood. :) Okay, no more details. ;) The end.

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PandorasBx
03:03 May 16 2013

Lolololol!!!!! Someone is giddy with love. ;)

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Frenetik
12:41 May 16 2013

Rose is drunk again...LOVEDRUNK!



aww I knew you'd have a great time! I'm so glad you had fun.

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Eee! :3 I wanna look good for tomorrow. I know I have horrible luck, I'll be all nice with a skirt and when I walk outside, boom, rain. xD Cold rainy day can't stop me! I wear what I want. >.>

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Frenetik
12:41 May 15 2013

you'll look great regardless! :)

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We're going to see the movie Pain & Gain this Wednesday. Can't guarantee we actually end up seeing anything though. haha



Distractions, distractions...

I love spending time with him and that little thing he does where he bites my bottom lip.



Crazy in love I'll tell ya. There are things I should actually be worried about and yet, hah, nothing. Like really worried about drama in life and shit and I don't care! I'm happy! I'm happy and not afraid.

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Frenetik
14:23 May 13 2013

I like happy and not afraid! Let's do that! Happy and not afraid!



Yayyy!

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A cloudy sky, with seagulls who fly inland to enjoy the rain. Wind blowing through my black locks of hair. I must have come out in the aftermath of this morning's storm.



As I'm walking, a dark older man with graying hair stops before me saying, "Well, well, well. Hello Beautiful, how are you?"



I walk past him in robotic New Yorker snub mode. Then smirk at the next block. Like he had the time of day, NOT. lmao



Eww, old men. :x

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KingOfTheZombies
22:25 May 11 2013

Who could resist New York? The greatest city on Earth!

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I have been making the worst typos tonight between a chat between him and I. xD To sum it up- I'mma post this image:

I had wonderful dreams last night. ♥



In all seriousness though, I hope I didn't talk in my sleep. xD Cause if my mind was as loud as my mouth. lmao

Was a long day. What I disliked about it was the stupid bus driver. He grabbed one of my guns (My right bicep) on the way out. I could have killed him.

Don't feel like going to jail though.

I know I'm strong but damn. O.o Man.



You don't just go and grab a girls muscles cause she's a kickass chick. >_>

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Lullaby
00:05 May 10 2013

I watched a... movie... about an evil bus-driver.

It was scary.

And humiliating for the chick.

Bleagh.

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xRosex
00:07 May 10 2013

What was the movie? o:

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I have been having a bad hair day all week with this weather. It's the humidity. One day it looks all fluffy like an afro.



Today it's all in curls like someone styled it. This is the curliest I've ever had it. o_O I'll never win.

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Frenetik
17:13 May 09 2013

um Rose...

welcome to my LIFE. hahaha

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PandorasBx
23:17 May 09 2013

Oh I hate what the humidity does to my hair ARRRGH. I wear my hair curly and when I went to New Orleans it was so humid that my hair went straight, stringy and damp.

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Things I wish I had:



The gloves I tried on just for the sake of it last weekend. They're the same ones I've got now. Except for the fact that the large keeps slipping off and the extra small fits like a, well, glove. :P



Didn't feel like getting them though. Can't afford it and- The guy was being a pushy nut. Was trying to sell my mother a surgical steel ring that had a bat painted on. I explained to her that it's made of the same material as his and my nose rings. Which is fine, except I know her. I'm mom's copy- you punch one dickhead and it'll end up scratched. Because it may be good quality, however, if it's on your hands it has a higher rate of getting paint chipped.



The salesman didn't like that I talked her out of it. Was only looking out for her. Would be a shame to ruin a cute ring.

Sometimes I think I've got an ego problem. I was taught that I could do more. That I'm strong.



My point being that, I forget I can be soft also. And if someone truly wants to help, and I really trust them, then it's okay. To let go of my stubborn ego and share my strength and lean on a good shoulder, need it be.

Looking through the packages of comics we got and the doubles. This years comics were enough to make a girl drool. Oh my god yes.

Up at 4:30am. Plan to leave at 6am, if I make good timing. I can only hope today will go well. :) Got it all planned out.

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BLOODLIFE
10:24 May 04 2013

Have a great day :-)

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Crap. I'm two-faced. No, really. I was wearing my cap to the side. Which hid half of my face and the other- you guessed it, burnt. xD

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Lullaby
05:09 May 03 2013

... LOLOL!

That's not funny but it's so funny. xD

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Seshat
05:17 May 03 2013

I knew it!

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PandorasBx
19:21 May 03 2013

*giggles* now that's funny :P

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Took me hours to realize I got sunburnt. T____T



I've got red collar bones.

Spent all day job hunting. Hah. They said they already have someone at the place I wanted to work at. It's funny as hell because people LOVE yanking chains these days. Least I expected them to be the pricks they were. Had a nice day out instead.

Going to try and get a job tomorrow. If I wake up early enough. It won't last long so if I come home empty handed, oh well. Not getting my hopes up.

So tense in my muscles still. Mostly my neck. I need to relieve tension somehow. Hmmm.

And I love you.

Wait no, I fucking love you!! There, that's better. :)

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Lullaby
06:16 May 01 2013

Awwww. I love you too. :o

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Seshat
07:16 May 01 2013

She was talking to me Miss Lullaby! I love you both! x

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supernova
09:30 May 01 2013

Youre so sexy when you swear:P

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xRosex
12:04 May 01 2013

I love you Aussies. lol

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I told myself I'd never do fan art again. Not after I got so hurt. But oh my god... you guys are so tempting. Must... draw hotness. Must. Maybe it's time to take another chance. Yeah. I'm going to go for it. :)